Episode 1: Mid 20’s Crisis


Welcome to Episode 1 of my mid-20’s crisis.

I didn’t know that a mid-20’s crisis was a thing until my friends who are not much older but definitely wiser informed that it most definitely IS a thing. Fantastic.

Let’s look at the timeline here…

  • 8-years-old: decide to do something in music when I grow up
  • 13-years-old: decide to be a choir teacher when I grow up
  • 22-years-old: first gig teaching choir right out of college
  • 24-years-old:  bought a house and got a dog
  • 25-years-old: start a graduate degree in education
  • 26-years-old: begin remodeling the house

Set for life. Right? WRONG. Oh boy, oh boy… was I wrong.

I attribute this astounding follow through to two things – stubbornness and fear. I was too stubborn to not follow through, and being a teacher has decent job security and benefits. Couple that with being afraid I would fail at something else, and you have a recipe for the straight and narrow.

Make no mistake, I do not regret pursuing my education, or my experiences in music, or even my experiences teaching. I have zero regrets about my current graduate program (done July 2018) because it is challenging and impacting me as a human, not just as an educator.

Cue the crisis: I had an epiphany today that what I love about teaching is NOT my students.


I DO love my students. They are amazing human beings. They deserve the world.

But I wondered, did I still really feel convinced that I love teaching? Or am I just supposed to feel that way?

In order to get to the bottom of my restlessness, I had to change the conversation in my head. I stopped focusing on what I love about teaching, and allowed myself to admit that I do not love teaching! It’s an interesting thing, switching out ‘love’ with ‘value.’ So here is the new conversation: what do I VALUE about my current profession? What I came up with is this:

  • Leadership
  • Collaboration
  • Mentoring
  • Creativity
  • Problem Solving
  • Project Management
  • Professional Development

Now that I’ve had this realization I’m not entirely sure what to do with it. I have some ideas but I suppose it all remains to be seen. I know whatever I end up pursuing, whether it be further opportunities in the education field or something else entirely, I can say without a doubt what I need in order to find value in my work.



My Specialized Grocery List

Once of the biggest shifts I had to make in my life was moving to a gluten-free and dairy-free diet. Additionally, I’ve found through completing a Whole 30 elimination diet that rice and tomatoes are not my friend, and neither is refined sugar.

If you find yourself in a similar dietary situation for whatever reason, maybe this list will help you.

One of my favorite places to shop is WinCo – and you’d think that in order to eat with these kinds of dietary restrictions I need to shop at specialty store! But, while I do love Sprout’s and Whole Foods, shopping there is not sustainable on my budget and most of the time I can get the ‘extras’ I need (like protein powder) from Amazon. Fry’s also has some really good deals on meat at the butcher counter, so if you are near a Kroger-type store that is also budget-friendly.

Spinach or Greens Mix (good in eggs, sauteed with fats, in smoothies)
Frozen Berries
Fresh Fruit (I buy whatever is in season or on sale)
Potatoes (5lb bag for <$2 @ WinCo)
Bell peppers

Meats & Poultry
Chicken Sausage
Eggs (18-count)
Chicken Breast (1-2 lbs)
Lean Turkey (93/7)
Fajita Beef (Kroger, 3 lbs)
Bacon (1 lb)
Salmon (2 fillets)
*I do not buy all of this in one week, but I mix and match depending on what I want. Figuring out the amounts I need was the tricky part!

6-7 gallons of water (I drink about one gallon per day)
12 Pack Lime La Croix (also on Amazon)
Califia Almond/Coconut Milk Blend (2 containers)

Fine Almond Flour (for pancakes)
Ghee butter (monthly purchase)
Olive Oil (monthly purchase)